The Time to Live is Now
On December 28th, 2012, my implanted pacemaker main wire lead broke inside of me. This was very bad news since I am 100% pacer dependent for life.
On the way to the first hospital, I had an NDE ... and felt myself drift away and fade into the clouds. Then I got the paddles. 750 volts will definitely get your attention. After that, I was med-evac downtown for emergency surgery.
Then, on March 1st, 2013, follow-up surgery to complete the rewiring and new implant. I spent 15 days in ICU on Morphine, Oxy, etc. and screamed bloody murder from the pain anyway.
Since then, I have had PTSD, Anxiety, and Panic Attacks almost daily. I'm trying to stay strong through all of this but at times it is difficult. I am seeing multiple specialists, holistic doctors, metaphysicians, energy healers, a shaman, and the next step will probably be hypnotherapy.
The bottom line is that this one event, after so many previous ones ... was the one that broke the camels back. It ruined my life. It devastated my tranquility and joy. Things will never be the same again. I know this and I have to accept it. I live with the constant threat that at any moment, it can happen again. And that my entire life depends on a computer implant half the size of an iPhone.
If you have read this far, the reason I am telling you all of this is so that you can understand how important it is for you to do the things in lie that you want to do NOW. Don't wait.
I've been around the sun 57 times and probably 95% of my bucket list remains unfulfilled. Do the things that you want to do NOW. Find a way. Shit happens in life and we have to deal with whatever comes our way. Each passing moment is an opportunity to live your desires. Take that trip. Buy that car. Go to the beach and walk in the sand. Drive down the inter-coastal. Buy that fishing boat. Now is all any of us ever have. Do something nice for someone else. ETM ... Enjoy The Moment.
We never know when something will come along to prevent us from reaching the goals we dream about. Start NOW. Take it from me. It took me far too long to wake up. I was chasing bullshit. Money, property, investments. For what? So I can take them with me? We come into this world with nothing, and we leave with nothing. All we do is borrow it all for a short bit.
Spend time with your loved ones, your spouse, your kids, your family and friends. Pet the dog and the cat more. Free your mind from chasing the unimportant ... and begin to enjoy the moment. There's no refund of you didn't enjoy the ride. And there's no going back.
We're all spiritual energy trapped inside a physical body having a material experience. Make it good. Make it envious. Make it last until you slide into home-plate worn out, beaten, and used up. Then, you can go home fulfilled. Peace and namaste.
~Justin Taylor, ORDM., OCP., DM.
19 May 2015
